Leaning In

I’m learning that leaning into the emotions that arise from hard times, rather than trying to tamp them down, is the way that breakthroughs happen.

At the end of our giving it all we’ve got, when we’ve got nothing left to give, when our wisdom has emptied out and our words won’t come because we realize that they actually are what they’ve always been - hollow. When we’ve got nothing left but questions, and we finally, at the end of our questions we ask the right question. It’s there and then that the universe speaks.

It says what we need to hear, an answer so profound, so all encompassing, so life changing, so perfect, so freeing, so unimaginably correct, that it will cause weeping. Weeping because seeing our truth and our true selves reveals the way to a better us. A way to be and live that we might have been searching for our entire lives.

Perhaps the universe may not try to talk over our babbling, nor will it shout us down as we filibuster from the bully pulpit of our lives. It won’t interrupt our streams of consciousness, nor will it ask us to wake from the dream state that self-reliance slowly lulls us into.  It will however, show up, but only after we find that what’s been running our lives for our entire life has broken us. It will speak the truth, but only to the last question, the one that comes after we’ve asked and asked, and all the other irrelevant questions have been exhausted. It will say what needs to be said, but only when what it says can be received. Perhaps it can be found at the end of oneself and then a ways farther off still. Perhaps that’s why it’s a moment to cherish, weep over, embrace, drink down and let it change us forever…..